Went out for dinner with Kon, Noel, De, and Irving. It was the last time we\’d ever eat together, so we were kind of in a melancholy mood. Afterwards we wandered around K-Mart cause Noel wanted to return something. Heh heh, we\’re so lame.

I packed the last of my things when we got back to the apartment. Started throwing away trash and cleaning. I want to do as few things as necessary tomorrow morning before the commencement. I\’m so excited. I\’m actually graduating college. For the first time in my life I feel like I\’ve really accomplished something. Well, ok, I still need to take 2 courses during summer school before I really finish college, but still.

So now I\’m entering the real world. No more going to classes, doing homework, watching TV all night, playing computer games, or working an easy part time job. No more fucking around. Now I have to start paying bills, start a career, meet a girl and start a family. I\’m really scared cause I have no idea where to start. I don\’t have a real job waiting for me after graduation(stupid economy) and I still don\’t have a girlfriend. And I have no idea what I\’ll be doing a year from now. I\’m tempted to go to grad school just so I can put this off for another few years.

I suppose I should start by looking for a full time job during the summer. I want to work up north somewhere, maybe Seattle or San Francisco, or maybe even New York. I should move even if I don\’t find a job. I have a feeling that if I don\’t move now, I\’ll never get out of Irvine. Not that Irvine\’s a bad place to live; it has its little charms and special places. I just need to see more of the world before I get too old and entrenched in routines.

The commencement ceremony starts in about 10 hours. I should unplug my computer and move it out to my car soon.